Sew Pretty

I made this bag yesterday. (I used a tutorial from here. ) I love that it has girly colors. Everywhere.  It turned out to be bigger than I was expecting, so sadly, I don't know that it will get used much. But now that I know basically how to make one, I think I am going to try to make a smaller one. In fact, I was up part of the night unable to sleep because I was thinking about how I could add a few different features. Like an elastic loopy thing to hold my water bottle and keep it from spilling. And maybe I will use some less busy fabric and add some lace or ruffles . . . The possibilities are endless!!
                                       

Everyday Happenings

William and Oliver LOVE playing with the trains. I find myself building lots of tracks through out the day. Oliver isn't as gentle with them as he should be.
                                            
Orion got some Legos for his birthday and is LOVING them!!! ( I think Dad is loving them too.)

I told the boys about a year ago that  I would make them new towels for Easter. I let them pick out what animal they wanted and even took them to pick out the color of towel they wanted. I have FINALLY finished two of the towels. (Orion is still waiting on his giraffe towel, I haven't quite figured out how to do it without a pattern.)
                                                  
                                          

Snow Day

Orion had his first snow day (that we were actually home for) a few weeks ago. We had a lot of fun!!

There is a VERY LITTLE hill in our front yard. We got out our sleds and went sledding down said hill. It really is too little for Orion, but he still had fun. It is PERFECT for Oliver who went over and over and over. I finally had to bribe him with hot chocolate to get him to come inside. William wanted nothing to do with the sleds or the hill.  But he did try to go down our slide. It did not work so well . . .

 We also got the play dough out.

I think we should have snow days more often!!!

Happy 6th Birthday

Can you believe I have a 6 year old?? I sure can't!!
On his birthday, we celebrated with cake and ice cream and presents. (I was rather pleased with how his cake turned out!!!)

 The watch he got for his birthday, shines 10 different batman themed pictures on walls.

 Today, Orion had his first birthday party. Holy moly it was a lot of work!!! He wanted a Superman theme. So we had superman capes for everyone. We played musical chairs with the superman theme music. We played pin the S on the Cape, and some different non-superman related games. I hope he enjoyed it, 'cause he probably wont be having another one anytime soon!!

 Philip decorated the birthday party cake.

How I Really Feel . . .

Growing up, and even after getting married and starting my family, I always assumed that I would have sons AND daughters. Well, after having now 4 boys, and no girls, my chances of having a little girl have dropped. Dramatically.
When we were first told that this little baby I am carrying was a boy. I was a little disappointed, but not to much. I was more concerned over his size. (Once again, it looks like I will have a big baby.) But as the reality of "you will probably never have a girl" settled in, the more disappointed I became. So much so, that I cried myself to sleep that night.
And then, I felt like a terrible person. What kind of mom is so disappointed in the gender of her VERY HEALTHY baby that she cries herself to sleep?? What kind of mom tears up when someone asks "Oh, what are you having?" This is supposed to be a happy thing. No matter what.
But, as I was thinking about it. I discovered that it isn't so much that I am having a boy. I know I will love him. He will be absolutely adorable and fun. I look forward to snuggling him, and playing with him. I look forward to watching a friendship develop between him and his brothers. I am THRILLED that I am having another baby, and I am excited that he is a boy.
So why I am crying every time I tell someone I am having another boy??(Besides the fact that I am pregnant and super hormonal?) Because I am mourning the loss of the little girl I may never get. I am sad that I may never get to sit and brush her hair. Or help her get ready for her first big date. I am sad that I may never be able to sew her a modest prom dress, or help her plan her wedding. I am sad at the loss of so many other silly little things that moms get to do with their daughters.
All that being said, I know that the Lord has a plan for me and for my family. He knows what is best for all of us, and  if we put our trust in Him, all will be well. I may never be a mommy to a little girl, but I am going to try to be the best mom I can to my boys so that someday, they will choose wonderful girls to be my daughters.